There is a place called paradise…

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I know I only tend to write currently at time when my heart soars.  Motherhood is consuming and it has, at times, consumed me.. My heart and life filled to the brim but my soul left feeling deeply neglected. Cast aside… Put on hold…

I know that this will evolve as my little one grows. For now, he needs his mamma. And his mamma cannot get enough of him…. You only have them small for such a short time…

Except, for the days when I can get enough of him.  The days that drain.  The days that I struggle. The days that feel like forever…. The days where I feel it’s the hardest job I’ve ever done.

It’s fluid… Just like life… Motherhood is a funny thing. It is so filled with intensity. Things don’t happen by halves. It is consuming and it’s always either on.. or off.

And in my experience, it’s so rarely off…

Don’t get me wrong. I love being the mother of my son. I cannot tell you of the love.

I have never experienced such love in any other moment in my life. The nurturing. The giving. The honesty. The laughs. The cuddles. They are all so so intense.

So big. So, so big..

For that I am time rich..  But for me, I am time poor.

Motherhood is unique to every single soul and every mother. Some thrive. Some falter. All will find a time where they need nourishment and support.

For everything there is a time.

As I write, I am sitting in a treehouse on the south east coast of Sri Lanka. For the first time since my motherhood journey began, I am reconnecting fully back in with myself. Replenishing my soul so it can continue to thrive and to give.

I am with five beautiful women.

Five strangers….

Five complete strangers….

Five different women, five different ages, with five different life journeys, and five different needs. Time has placed us together in this space.

In this journey…

Call it coincidence. Call it fate. But we are all here.

Now.

Nurturing each other. Supporting each other.

Laughing, learning, living, embracing. Our hearts are wide open. Our souls are filling again.

We are on what is called a “balance break.” A restoration of ourselves. A nurturing of ourselves. A checking in. A “retreat” if you like, based entirely on us.

And yes, it’s utterly amazing!!

If you haven’t escaped before, why not jump off and try it?! Find one that suits you. Nurtures you. Your life will only be richer for it, your heart open and your soul enriched. You might just find the way to fly higher than you ever imagined…

I chose Paper Tiger Wellness for my soul balance break.

 
ECOTIP – travel in Asia, it is nearly impossible to avoid your plastic usage. For starters, you can’t drink the water so every drop of drinking water comes out of a plastic bottle. Now that we have such fabulous recycling programs in place in Australia, I’m squashing all my plastic bottles, which totalled only three as I’m refilling where possible, with the intent to bring home in my luggage and recycling in Australia is I can guarantee they won’t end up on a beach. I’m doing the same with my soft plastic packaging. They’ll be headed for the RedCycle bin at my local Coles supermarket.

If you’re interested in finding out more about providing safe drinking water without waste to areas of the world that need it most, check out http://www.wavesforwater.org/about/story and become a courier on your next trip.

 

Get out there.  The world awaits you.  Your soul dreams to fly.

xx

Our sea-change.. Or was it tree-change?

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A year ago we moved across our great big continent. A distance of nearly 4,000 kilometres.

A year ago we uprooted our lives and took a chance.  We moved away from the big cities and into a more regional area.  Today we pinch ourselves as to where our lives are now.

We’ve only just realised that we have made both a sea-change and a tree-change and we couldn’t be happier..

Life is simple.

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Watching our child grow up miles from the craziness of our modern day cities makes us smile.  We have playdates on the beach.  We bush walk.  We climb trees.  We garden.  We play in the mud.  We jump in muddy puddles.  We check the surf with dad.  We watch native animals and birds in our backyard.  We are growing our own vegetables.  We make bread from scratch.

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When I return from working in the city to our little life, I feel myself begin to breathe..

The space.  The stars.  The trees.  The silence.  So long traffic….

Honey, I’m home.

x

 

Bless….

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“As the years pass, I am coming more and more to understand that it is the common, everyday blessings of our common everyday lives for which we should be particularly grateful. They are the things that fill our lives with comfort and our hearts with gladness — just the pure air to breathe and the strength to breath it; just warmth and shelter and home folks; just plain food that gives us strength; the bright sunshine on a cold day; and a cool breeze when the day is warm.”

― Laura Ingalls Wilder
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Fragility

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Every once in a while something shocks you. Strikes you down. Hits you hard. In the chest. In your heart. In your soul. Something that will stay with you forever.

Something that when it does, saddens me to the core. Makes me bleed.

A few months back it was an image of an orangutan. Covered in blood. Burned by humans, to death. The real face of the fight against palm oil. The real victims.

That image hit me hard. That image has changed me. It has made me more aware. It has influenced the way I shop at the supermarket. It has changed the products I buy. Palm oil is currently my enemy number one. I can fight with my wallet.

What absolutely knocked me for six was an image I came across on Facebook just the other day. An image so confronting that I will share it only on a link below. It was a photograph of a beautiful strong African male elephant killed by poachers. They hadn’t just sawn off his tusks, but had hacked off his entire face for the illusive ivory of his beautiful strong tusks. All whilst he was alive. Probably to save on time and bullets.

What???!!! Images like this distress me. Images like this and the orangutan haunt me. They make me feel sick to be human.

Unlike palm oil, this reality I can’t fight.

War, as much as it horrifies me to say this, I can deal with. Two sides, both human. Both with egos. The devastation it causes is tragic but is human created.

Famine, also so tragic, I believe is nature’s way of culling. Us, animals, plants…. It’s survival of the fittest. It’s Darwin’s theory of evolution.

What really hits me is human vs nature. One with a mind and an ego so big. The other much more fragile and innocent.

Both the orangutan and the stunningly strong bull elephant will remain in my mind forever. Both have lost their lives. But, both have made a life changing imprint on my life. Both have changed me as a human. Both have made me stand up ready to fight. To fight for the future of their species and of this beautiful planet we share. Neither, in my heart and soul, have died in vane.

I believe that education is the greatest teacher. Through awareness we learn. By acting on that knowledge we grow strong.

With enough noise, one man can change the world.

xx

Orangutan: http://www.greenerideal.com/science/0911-burned-orangutan-dies-result-of-palm-oil-demand/

Elephant: http://freespirithobo.tumblr.com/post/18623870552/his-face-hacked-off-with-no-conscience-or

Evolution

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Nearly six months later and I am only just beginning to feel as though I am resurfacing into the world after having our baby. Some days are still hazy; other days the clouds are starting to lift. Sleep, on the other hand, is still very much only a dream.

It’s quite amazing. No-one can ever truly prepare you for motherhood. Every mother’s road will be different. Every child unique. Just like a David Attenborough documentary, every parent evolving just as a caterpillar metamorphosises into a beautiful butterfly. Never to return.

Just like my life you will find that this blog too evolves. I write from within so therefore how could it possibly not. This year is going to be a big one as we begin plans to rebirth our home. Evolve our home. And as always, expand our dreams of living green in a modern world.

Less than five kilometres from our city centre, yet we are creating a world away from the hustle and bustle of the crazy modern age we live in. Green grass, gardens, worm farms, edible backyards, chickens, insects, compost, solar passive designs, sustainable living, baby steps…

Life is taking time to smell the roses.

As the clouds lift higher, I plan to make time to blog. I plan to reconnect again with this earth. I plan to feel the wind on my cheeks. I’m looking forward to you joining me on my journey.

xx

It’s a new world..

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adult_hand_with_baby_hand_webTwo weeks ago tomorrow, my husband and I welcomed our beautiful little boy into the world.

It wasn’t the birth we’d planned but then again what in nature can be planned…

We dreamed of a natural birth. A birth that began when our baby decided it was time. A calm hypnobirth. Drug free. Delayed cord clamping. Natural placenta birth. etc….etc…

Induced at 37 weeks due to low amniotic fluid, we had two days to get our heads around the fact that our entire birth plan was about to go out the window. We both became very fearful. What we believed was in our hands, was now TOTALLY out of our hands! We feared for the cascade of intervention. The high chance of ending up with epidurals, complications and the risk of caesarean. This was not a road we wanted to walk.

Enter stage-right our beautiful Doula Emma Stewart. A few fear release sessions later and her continuous support and unbroken pelvic massage, my husband and I delivered our little boy six and a half hours later, induced with Syntocinon, yet entirely drug free. Against our wishes, our little one had his cord instantly clamped and cut and less than five minutes of skin on skin contact before he was whisked away into neonatal. Soooo totally not the birth we planned for him but the most important thing was that he was out… Safely!!! The rest could not be changed.

So, we began our lives as a family. Where two become three. Where love goes deeper than one could ever imagine.

Our little one is simply perfect.

They say that in centuries gone by and in many traditional cultures still today, a woman is nurtured for six weeks after becoming a mother. She eats warming food that is cooked for her, not by her. Her belly is oiled and bound to help her uterus to contract and return to size. Her every need is fully met. Her only job, to focus on herself and her baby. More often than not, she is bed-rested for six whole weeks!

The modern world we live in has totally eradicated this bonding and recovery time. Mothers are expected to return to life asap after labour… To not do so, shows weakness.

How wrong this thought pattern is….

We have been truly blessed to have had my family cooking, cleaning and shopping for us the last ten days whilst we three bond as a little family. A total godsend! I believe this has been the reason why two weeks later, our home is calm, peaceful, clean and totally functioning. Our hearts are open and filled with love. Our lives are enriched, not stripped away. Our baby sleeps. And our little family is happy and complete.

I can say that placenta encapsulation is worth it’s weight in gold! What our little one missed out on with his umbilical cord being cut within seconds of his birth, he is now benefitting through my body and my breast milk. Not to mention, my risk of postnatal depression has been severely minimised.

My mother sent me today for THE most amazing body scrub and facial at Bodhi Health and Beauty Spa here in Perth. For nearly two hours, I was pampered by Michelle, using my favourite organic and toxic free Sodashi products. My body was scrubbed and detoxed from head to toe and made to feel alive, complete and once again my own. After 10 months of not being able to detox and half of that time not even being able to touch my toes, a layer of skin has been removed from my body, my liver and my soul.

My life is perfect and now my rebirth has begun….

xx

 

Our Earth…. Beautiful…. Finite….

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For every breath we take, every choice we make…

This beautiful short film is the reason humans must change the way we live. We are merely a thread in a very fragile web.

It will bring tears to your eyes and a profound love to your heart. Enjoy and please keep sharing. xx

♥ Life. ♥ this planet. It’s the only one we’ve got.

It’ll only take you 5 minutes to watch.  A lifetime of rememberance and future choices.

Inspiration

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I watched THE most inspiring movie yesterday. “180 degrees South”

You can find the trailer here…. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=em3mIrbOeFw

It was not just another surfing movie… Or a rock climbing movie…  It was a movie about pushing boundaries.  About finding a place where your soul can sing.

And ultimately, it was a movie about living small, taking from this earth only what you need and standing up for what you believe.  Most importantly, it was a movie about conservation.

“(With the modern world) people say you can’t go back…. Now what happens when you stand on the edge of a cliff? You do a 180 degree turn and take one step forward” – Doug Tompkins, 180 degrees South (American environmentalist, prominent landowner, conservationist and a former co-founder of North Face and Esprit.)

“180 degrees South” has inspired my soul and given me a kick back into reality.

I urge you to make time for two hours following a beautiful journey through some of the most remote places you will find on this earth.

You will not regret it. ♥

xx